X'mas Thought

No doubt, it's X'mas time.

I spend the X'mas last year in Tokyo with my clients. Two old men, having dinner inside a hotel restaurant in Shinjuku. I still remember the steak, and the beer. Japan has no X'mas holiday, yet the cold weather and X'mas decorations around the town gave me one of the greatest X'mas ever.

This year is another lonely X'mas. It's getting colder and colder. The road in TST and Causeway Bay are filled with sweet lovers. You can just feel how happy they're in this great time. "The quest for love is our inherent desire to seek attachment." True, and that's why I haven't started any relationship without the feeling of attachment. Still, I'm yearning for someone with me during holiday times: fear of being alone.

Probably, I am just not mature for love.

Or I just really need a Happy New Year, one could let me enjoy the feeling of love again after 3 years.